I did it!

I walked twice 'round le block last night :)

I'm fat, lol, I can't believe that the woman huffing and puffing it last night is the same woman that used to do 20 minutes of the stair climber, a 50 minutes step class and 20 minutes of weights, every time I went to the gym, sometimes 6 days a week.

Sheesh, seriously, if you don't use, it you lose it. And I lost it big time.

Then I remember how outta shape I was at the start of it all those years ago and how I gradually got stronger and healthier and I feel better.

I was thinking back to a slap in the face I got a few months ago. In the summer of 2006 My sister, friends and I and our kids took a vacation to Orlando. We had a blast, we did Universal almost every day, to me those two parks are the best, and the older kids prefer them as well. All in all we have a grand ole time.

They did Disney for a day and we shopped and ate and swam till all hours. Anyway, a few months after we returned home, I go to the Bronx to visit one of my best friends and she pulls out her vacation pics.

Needless to say, I was mortified. Now listen I KNOW I'm a big gal, seriously I do, but when I saw that photo I wanted to cry. When had I gotten THAT big you know? And is that how every one else sees me? I always thought I was doing a bang up job of hiding the fat rolls and the belly. Have I mentioned before how I am cursed with the body type in which I gain 80% of my weight in my belly and always look about 6 months pregnant? Well I do, and I hate it. And apparently I wasn't doing such a great job of hiding the mass that is me either :(

The bathing suit photo was the most horrendous and I immediately ordered her to destroy it. Well, the nasty little biatch wouldn't. I can really hate her sometimes, she instead offered it up for incentive. Said I should tape it to my fridge to inspire me to thinness and stop me from snacking. Okay, now she's my friend again.

I can't even remember whether I took the picture or not, but it brought a damper to my weekend, let me just tell you that!

Just thought I'd share that with you since it was on my lind last night.

In case you were wondering, no, I don't plan on regaling you with my daily dinner menu, but if it's something that turned out really delish or something a little off the beaten path, I'll tell you about it.

I didn't think my kids would go for this one, but they did :)

We had "goodwiches" for dinner last night. Ingredients? Everything you usually eat on a sandwich minus the meat and cheese (remember "Fit for Life"). Mine was Italian bread, light mayo, lettuce, tomatoes and onion. My son had bread, mayo and lettuce and my daughter the same.

So great, light and filling.

I've added a list of weight loss fiction that I've read and liked, hope you do too.

Have a healthy day.

Laterz!

Inspired by the Apartment Walker and The Biggest Loser

Years and years ago my aunt told me about her friend’s husband who had lost upwards of 100 pounds walking in his apartment. Not house, mind you, an apartment. He was uncomfortable hitting the pavement in New York City along side the skinny minnie's and so instead he created a workout for himself.

He bought some walking kix and a Walkman (I told you it was year ago - lol). Then he proceeded to walk around his place like a mad man an hour a day. And guess what? IT WORKED.

You always hear that you should incorporate exercise into your daily routine. It's been said that even if you're too busy to do a consistent amount of time, you can break it up into 10 minutes increments and get the same benefits.

So, last night as I was watching The Biggest Loser, and they spoke about consistency being key to success I decided to test the theory. A consistent 10 minutes here and 10 minutes there should show some improvement to not only my weight but my overall health.

Side Bar: Dinner was totally Fit for Life, cabbage, salad and baked chicken seasoned with fresh garlic and oregano, and kosher salt. You should try it, it was sooooo delish :)

After work today I will be walking. Now remember that I am outta shape like a mutha. However, drum roll please, I will attempt to walk around my block at least twice.

And NO, twice around the block will in no way get me ready for a marathon. But I figure it this way, for someone as sedentary as I am, that is a huge step, no pun intended. I mean it's a lot for a women, ahem, I mean gal ;) like me that is huffing and puffing while trying to keep up with my kids at the mall.

But you know I already don't want to do it right? LOL - I'm thinking of a hundred reasons I shouldn't even attempt it, but I have to resist the urge to do that same thing every day and expect different results.

And it is supposed to rain which is my biggest excuse, and though I love the rain, I don't like wet sticky clothes clinging to my Fat-tabulous body. If it does rain, I will rip a page from the Apartment Walker and crank up some music and walk around my house.

Wish me luck mi gente,

Laterz!

Weekend Warrior

I hope everyone had a fantabulous weekend!

We had a birthday dinner for my daughter and had a blast. My mom cooked most of the food so I fell off the wagon on Saturday but got right back up on Sunday, I DID! Geesh


I wonder if any one else has used the Fit for Life program with any success? I did a few years back, okay, okay, almost a friggin decade ago, geesh! Bust my chops why dontcha!?


Anyway, I figure it like this, if 30 is the new 20 I have just a good a chance as the next gal or guy right!? :)

Some inspiration for my crew:










And yes, I know celebs have it easier since they have the money for a personal trainer, a chef, etc. But no matter how much money they have they still have to do the work themselves just like us. Celebrity or not, if they sneak a pizza at 2 am or fore go the elliptical then the pounds will stay or creep up, period!

So if they can WE CAN! :)


Laterz!

My bad!

So I've been gone for a month and needed to jump back on and extend my apologies, Sorry guys, :( Now let's get down to it, shall we?

I have been very busy this last month and have a surprise in store for all of you Soon-isht :)

Now, now, don't be nosey, you must wait.

So what's up in my world?

Well, I started eating properly combined foods a la "Fit for Life" and even my kids are on board! While we aren't following it to a tee, we are doing the proper combinations for dinner only, the results have been wonderful.

My son and I used to wake up with lead legs, you know, where you are literally dragging your legs for about 10 minutes until it lets up. Well now that is a problem no longer people. Also it was always a chore to get out of bed in the morning period, for all of us. Feeling tired and sluggish, but now when the alarm clock goes off and I'm up and ready to slip out of bed, bright eyed and bushy tailed. I wake them up and instead of "mom, please, 5 more minutes", they simply, get up, no muss, no fuss. :)

I want to delve into the complete program little by little because it is difficult to do in the beginning, so our next step will be only fruit for breakfast on the weekends.

Also, since I bring leftovers to work, Mon-Fri, I've been following the program for both lunch and dinner and this, I believe, is why my pants aren't as tight as usual. I don't know how much I've lost exactly since I don't own a scale but I know I've lost something, and that's enough for me:)

Like I said, I am busy as a bee, but I actually miss posting so I will do my best to make time to bore you with my mundane escapades as often as I possibly can :)

Laterz!

Can I get a WHAT, WHAT?!

Hope everyone had a fantabulous long weekend :) I stayed in most of it, read, also did a little shopping on Sunday, hung out with my kiddies and visited my sister on Saturday.

And no, I was not subjected to the torturous Barbecue :) YAY for moi. Aint it grand?! Not because I "chickened out" either, like a friend of mine accused me of. She's always been a nasty Puerto Rican :) She decided not to throw the party for her man, why? Who knows, who cares, as long as I was spared.lol

On to the business of the day, MEN! I received an email from a friend of mine in the great state of Texas. She has been doing really well with her exercise regimen and eating a lot better and has even seen results. And she knows, intellectually that when you are in the middle of a weight loss/health program your body is a work in progress. I mean she really knows, she is a friggin' nurse, so seriously, SHE KNOWS!

But how many times have I said that knowing something logically doesn't necessarily mean that we can shut off our feelings? Many, becasue it just doen't matter what you know, sometimes it's all about how you feel.

Anyway, she is in a store and notices a man, (just some random dude) checking her out, can I get a what, what?!. This, of course, make her nervous while making her very happy, indeed.

So she starts adjusting herself, a little self conscious. I mean who is he looking at, her? really, or perhaps someone over her shoulder, or that 20-something she saw a minute ago? Anywho, she starts for the door and get this, he runs across the store, knocks down a vieja (old lady) jumps a hurdle of small children and huffing and puffing, he grabs the door and holds it open for her.

Okay, okay, it didn't happen quite like that :) LOL

However he did hold the door open for her and was smiling. She is thinking "What a gentleman", and smiles back. And in the few seconds this thought is floating through her mind, he is still smiling, while studying her purty face, his gaze lowers to "the girls" as most men's do, and yep, he is STILL smiling. Now by this time she is feeling just great. A man other than her man is appreciative of her beauty, of her efforts, wow! And then he glances down to what she refers to as her "pooch" and then BAM! He looks away with what she describes as "a look of disappointment".

And what happened? Well my friend gets pissed and walks away without a backward glance, but she left upset with her weight, all she was thinking was "Asshole"!

My point is this, though we shouldn't let them, our surroundings and interactions DO shape us and our moods. Before the jerk wad made his "face" she was on cloud nine. Happy with her progress thus far, feeling sexy and strutting her stuff. After "the face" she spiraled down into a completely different mood. And it all happen in the blink of an eye with just one look :(

MEN! Why couldn't he just have kept smiling that extra nano-seond and parted ways?

Don't worry mama, you are still fly :) Don't let the haters get ya down.

Laterz!

Long Weekend Ahead...

So, I got a call from a friend inviting me to a barbecue/birthday party this weekend. And I really see now, how my weight affects everything I do. It affects my social life in the sense that I don't have one. I will go and visit a friend or family member but I detest gatherings. It wasn't always like that, I wasn't always like that.

I just hate being the big girl at the party, you know? I always feel uncomfortable, like every one is staring at me. Should I eat before hand, should I stick to water, how early can I leave without looking bad? All questions I ponder every friggin' time I go somewhere.

'Cuz, seriously, who can have a good time when they don't feel as if they fit it? Not me, that's for sure. And it doesn't help that I recently developed a few rolls of film I found around my house and saw myself about 65 lbs lighter. I look so pretty, not to toot my own horn or anything (TOOT - TOOT!!!!).

Not only was I thinner, I was happy, my skin was radiant, my outfit fabulous, of course! You see, it's a whole package with me apparently, black or white, no "in between".

Okay, so I'm fat, why can't I find the elusive "it" and still take care of myself? Why do I live in stretch pants, sweats and hoodies when I'm not at work (and sometimes even when I am)?

I don't know, but I will be doing a lot of soul searching this weekend, because I'm tired of thinking that only thin women can be pretty or have fun or be desired. I mean logically, I know this, but emotionally I have to catch up.

As for the party, am I going? Yes, I am, but I don't wanna. And that's the truth :(

In case I don't get to log on again, have a great weekend!

Laterz!